i’m 33 years old, and i am a premature greybie.
i found my first grey hair around 16 or 17. I vividly recall being in the bathroom of my family home and ripping it out before anyone noticed. for about five years I found single hairs fairly often; never in a group, always around my cowlick in the front. then, when I was about 23, they started fighting back in formation.
i hate dyeing my hair: it smells, it’s full of chemicals, it never last more than a week before they come back with a vengeance, and it turns my curly hair into a cross between steel wool and straw. so I stopped dyeing it in march. at first not much happened; i actually started to believe that my hair wasn’t as bad as i suspected and the greys i was always seeing were confined to the whispy little ‘einstein’ ones that i have permanently flying around my head in a haze. but in the last week or so it has morphed from badger stripes into full-on cruella deville territory!!
this is my hair today (half of it at least):
spot the difference?
it’s been a huge lesson in vanity; i read this blog from Lauren in the USA about her journey into early grey hair and she spoke about the self consciousness of the process, which i really didn’t think would affect me as much as it has. the past month was surprisingly even worse than the first month: i don’t know why! i’m sticking with it for as long as i can, too. my hair feels healthier than it has in years, and i’ve noticed weird bits of ginger turning up randomly which i suspect is a side effect of the old dye slowly wearing off. some days i feel incredibly old, and some days i don’t even realise i have very grey hair. most days i look like my grandmother, which can be interpreted as a compliment or a curse (i love you gran, but i want to look like you in a few more years if that’s okay!!! xxx) i’ve got my sister’s wedding in february to work around;
she something tells me she’s not planning to have a bridesmaid with mismatched nanna hair so i’ll have to either buck up, dye it, and start again, or find some sort of temporary solution. i’m not sure.
but it’s definitely turning into an interesting experiment in self confidence and image. i love dressing up and having fun with clothes, so i find it intriguing how hairstyles and beauty fit into that routine as well and the difference they can make to your overall mood and self expression. hopefully as my grey hair takes over it will destroy the self doubt and bring more positive image esteem that women are so good at ignoring and beating down.
first world problems i suppose!